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i saw you this morning, pretty bright morning for being autumn/winter time... the same song i used to remember when i hung out with you was playing and i just stared at you, i don't think you noticed that
it can be so far, uh? not even a memory, not even a trace or something but a fuzzy remembrance between laughter and relax, some have told me that i shouldn't have told you that in that moment, that i should had kept that for my self... anyway, it's gone, done and gone like the song in this moment... i told you how i felt about that what my plans were and how happy i would be if you joined me, something broke at that moment, both of us heard that like glass wrapped in fabric crushed in great detail quickly and patiently until there were no large pieces to break... i think it was fear against dreaming, so fragile, so ephemer(e)al, so unmesaurable to be taken in a further conversations... and you just looked somewhere else, needless to say what your answer was for you say no word about it anymore, it was almost like you've been abducted and nothing within those seconds had ever happened.. and farewell, see you later, be safe, good bye
it makes me feel like i'm insane... may be this never happened and it's just part of my fragile state of mind, again...